family pictures {october 2013}

we had pictures taken the second week of october, and our holiday cards were printed and on my doorstep on halloween.  this has not happened in the history of ever, and i still waited until mid-december to finally get them out.  i had the very best intentions…really.  the amazingly talented, uber-sweet, and all around great person, meredith gutshall, took these, and i could not be happier.  now i need to get my act together and plaster my walls with these babies.  thanks, miss meredith, for these treasures.

















chloe {9 months}

chlo-girl, you are so so social and the just the happiest baby around.  you are crawling so fast, clapping, waving bye-bye, giving kisses and trying to share your food.  you had your first ear infection right at 9 months – boo!  my poor mom was up all night with you while we were at a wedding in st louis (talk about some mommy/daughter guilt for that one).  beckett did you one better and got a double ear infection a few days later.  let me tell you, it was not super fun around here that week.  yikes.  i weighed you at the dr’s office that first week of oct when we were there, and you were 19 lb, 12 oz.  when we finally got your official 9 month check-up on november 25 (way closer to 10 months), you were 20 lb, 8 oz. (85%) and 29 1/4 in tall (95%)  i recently found beckett’s stats from around 9 months, and he was 20lb 2 oz, so you guys are right about the same size at this age.

in the last month, you’ve gotten five new teeth (a third tooth on the bottom and four up top) and have another on the way.  you are sprouting those and hair like crazy.  your hair is looking a touch darker, but that’s probably just because it’s getting more dense.  i am also sprouting crazy hair too, where it fell out after you were born.  i just cut some bangs to try to blend it all in.  that may have been a mistake.  they’re sure going to take some getting used to anyway.  you are pulling up on everything and occasionally letting go, leaving you standing for a second.

as for sleeping, i’m still up once a night typically, though we’re trying hard to nix that nighttime feeding without letting you cry for hours…because i’m pretty sure you would.  you are a persistent little thing, which will be great for you in the long run, but is kind of annoying right now.  i’ve kind of decided to just wean you all-together at a year, and hopefully that will work out.  when you do wake up and cry, you rock yourself.  it’s kind of cute – the rocking, not the crying.  i’m nursing you four times a day and you are eating meals like a champ, preferably feeding yourself pretty exclusively with your right hand.  maybe you’re a righty?  beckett was definitely favoring his left by this age.




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fueling {your fire}

you guys!!  thank you for all your amazing comments on here, facebook, and instagram.  sounds like that last post struck a chord with you all, and it was really encouraging for me to hear your feedback.  while i know i’m not doing this alone, it’s great to hear that you all are facing the same things.  i keep thinking that women (and men) have been raising babies for millions of years, so why do i feel so much like i’m drowning?  the truth is that they were probably overwhelmed too, they just didn’t have this little thing called social media to publicize it.  sadly, i think beckett has started to pick up on my ‘funk’ and is developing one of his own.  that’s where i draw the line, and i need to get things turned around stat.

so i’m making a plan.  i’m figuring out what i need to fill my tank and get some fire back, and i think those things are rest, creative time, and church.  i’m telling you so you can hold me accountable.

  • rest – i am really struggling with getting a sufficient amount of sleep (chloe has been a sleep-hater lately – dang!), so i’m going to pick 3 nights a week, and go to bed early.  that starts tonight.
  • creative time – jared has agreed to keep the kids occupied for a few hours on saturday mornings so i can get my hands ‘dirty’ again – taking pictures, sewing, painting, whatever.  this stuff really makes me feel so good – and productive!  bonus is that i’ll have more to share with you here!
  • church – it has been far too long since we were regular church-goers, and i want to change that.  i think it’ll help get our week started on the right note.

will you make a plan too?  no need to tell me what yours is (or do!  i’d really love to hear!), but let’s start taking care of ourselves, friends.

in other news, beckett and chloe were a quarterback (james franklin to be exact) and his trusty football for halloween.   it was pretty cute.




chloe {7 months}

ok, ok, i know chloe is actually 8 months today.  i’m doing the doggy-paddle and trying to keep my head above water over here, and sadly, this blog falls to the bottom of the list.  i really hope i can get back at it one of these days.  we’ve done lots of little projects around here but i can’t seem to get organized enough to write about them.  ok, no more excuses.  just want you to know i’m not forgetting about this, i just need about 2 more waking hours a day…or at least for chloe to sleep through the night consistently so i begin not to feel like a walking zombie.

chloe dear, at 7 months, you were full-on crawling – you officially got the hang of that at about 6 1/2 months.  you were pulling up too!  i don’t have a ton of notes from month 7 because i think you were really working on crawling and pulling up, and girl, you’ve got it down.  you are in. constant. motion.  you are not a huge fan of being confined in any way – that means the ‘command center’ (that’s what we call the play center that she can sit in), high chair, and even being held.  rock this girl to sleep?  only on a very rare occasion.  speaking of sleep…

this month of sleep was not good.  you probably slept through a third of them, which is a start.  i’m a lot more at peace with it than i was a month ago.  don’t get me wrong, i don’t like getting up, but sometimes, you just need a little extra love i guess.  we’ve tried to let you fuss and cry, but i really think you would cry for hours if we let you, and we just can’t do it.  i end up nursing you, and you go right back to sleep.  truthfully, it’s the easiest thing to do.  you won’t be this little for long, and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel on the sleeping front.

we slowly introduced different kinds of food, and you have been a fan of most of it.  i skipped the rice cereal since it seems that no baby really likes it, and jumped right in with carrots.  we moved onto sweet potatoes, squash, other veggies, and then fruit.  you’re a good little eater.  you are jabbering a lot!!  still saying mama and baba mostly.  you and beckett can really give each other the giggles now and you’re starting to interact with each other a lot more.  it is so dang sweet.



{do you ever look down and realize you dressed yourself and your kid(s) alike?  happens probably twice a week here.}


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chloe {6 month pictures}

i’m finally getting around to posting sweet chloe’s 6 month pictures.  i know i’ve talked about how happy this child is, but these pictures capture her perfectly – unbelievably happy, curious, and in constant motion.  jared had to help me with these because she was so focused on crawling all over this blanket that i couldn’t distract her enough to look at the camera.  i really love how these turned out.








{we see this face a lot – snorting comes with it}




and off she goes again.  the serape blanket is from arrow & aspen, who initially sent me a blanket different from the one i ordered.  they were so sweet to send me the correct one and gift the original one to me to apologize for the mix up.  thanks guys.  i am loving these, and i keep moving them around our house to figure out where i like them best.  their permanent home is still tbd.

chloe {6 months}

chloe, once again, you are much closer to 7 months than 6, but i wanted to have your stats this time and your appointment was just monday.  and your stats – i’m kind of in shock.  you are 18 lbs, which puts you in the 50ish percentile, and you are 27 1/4 in tall, which puts you in the 90th percentile!!  people, is this really my baby?  i’m 5’2″!

i think this has been your most changing month.  i thought beckett was active, but you kind of put him to shame, which scares me.  at your 6 month mark, on august 1st, you were definitely moving around – mostly inchworming, and army crawling.  your legs are crawling, but you haven’t figured out the arms, so you just launch your body forward and let your feet catch up.  you can now go from ‘crawling’ to sitting up by yourself, and have started to sit up for long periods of time.  you are babbling – yaya and mama!  beckett didn’t say mama for a looooong time, so this kind of thrilled me.  and i swear that you’re saying it to me – when you’re hungry or tired or just a little fussy, it’s mamamamama.  it’s probably all in my head.  you still have some pretty sweet cheeks, but you continue to thin out.  you’re eyes are so sparkly, but we still can’t quite tell the color – some days they’re blue, some days gray, and sometimes we see a little green.

i read in my notes that you slept three nights in a row for 12 hours.  i don’t think that has happened more than that since, and we have two cute little teeth and a cold to thank for that.  both have completely wrecked your sleep, and mine too.  dang.  it’s been about three nights of good sleep, three nights of terrible, alternating this month.  sleep or no sleep, you are still the happiest kid i ever did meet.

beckett has been calling you clo quite a bit recently, and he even throws out a chlostine every now and then.  you guys are getting pretty cute together.






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chloe {5 months}

chloe, your personality is really starting to shine, and it’s so fun to see you become who you’re going to be.  i swear, you are the happiest baby – super smiley and easygoing 99% of the time.

you went on your first trip this month – to san diego!  dad had a conference, and you and i tagged along.  b-man stayed behind with the grandparents, and we got to have lots of one-on-one time with you – a treat {but we sure missed beckett}!  you were an amazingly good traveler and were very go-with-the-flow.  we got back on a wednesday, and the next thursday, we were on a plane again – this time all four of us – to louisiana for my cousin, emily’s, wedding.  we had so much fun seeing my aunts, uncles, and cousins, and you were a champ at getting passed around.

you are so so active, my dear.  if i’m holding you, you love to ‘jump’, and if you’re on the floor, you’re rolling around or scooting.  you’re up on your hands and knees, rocking, doing planks, and even getting one knee going forward.  i don’t think we have much longer until you’re crawling.  you’re figuring out how to move {by rolling or scooting}, and it’s mostly backwards right now.  it’s pretty much a guarantee that if i put you down, you’ll be somewhere else by the time i turn around.  almost time for us to put up the baby gates – your mobility snuck right up on us!  you are nearly sitting up, and are squealing quite a bit.  your cheeks and sides of your stomach are ticklish, and you are happy to laugh most anytime.  you are grabbing for everything!  my hair is one of your favorite things to go for – ouch – but anything that you can get your hands on, you are swiping at and chewing on.  you are blowing raspberries and drooling like crazy, but no teeth yet.

we’re figuring out the sleep thing!  i was so done getting up so much in the night.  i was feeling like a wreck during the day {daddy too}, so i decided to revisit some of my books.  i stopped nursing you to sleep {which i had been doing for one nap and at bedtime}, and i swear, the switch flipped, and you started sleeping!  maybe it was total coincidence.  i don’t care.  i feel like a new woman.  when i rock you to get you sleepy, you like to hold hands, touch my face, or rub my shoulder – it’s such a sweet quiet time with you.

{shiny, happy girl}




{look, you were in san diego!}

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{aaaaand, i just found my new favorite picture of you}