let’s get real for a minute. i am sleep deprived, in a constant state of frazzle, over-caffeinated, perpetually late, hair in a constant topknot, and not exactly sure who I am anymore. i am a full time mom. it’s my dream job, but man, it’s hard work. sound familiar to anyone? please please please tell me it does.
beckett challenges me. he’s not the rule follower i was and to say he’s active would be a crazy understatement. he’s also about thisclose to giving up his nap. chloe only recently started to appreciate that i like more than 6 hrs if sleep a night and thinks its funny to bite me when she nurses. i am in a bit of a hard place – mainly a place of exhaustion.
but these kids who exhaust me physically and emotionally also light me up. i can’t believe i didn’t know about this kind of all-consuming love just a few years ago, and to watch them become who they’re going to be is nothing short of miraculous. they are my everything, and though i’m not exactly sure where they stop and i start, i know i am proud of what i’m doing right now. even if i’m a mess in the process.